GOODBYE LETTER 💔

 

Dear Aldrin,

         I will let you go kahit wala naman naging tayo. Thank you for a lesson learned experienced.

         Hihintayin ko na lang yung araw na kaya na kita patawarin. Sa ngayon hindi ko pa mabibigay yon, hindi ko kase alam ang sa totoo o hindi na pinakita mo sa akin.

         Hindi ko hihilingin na maging masaya ka. Hihilingin ko na sana maging masaya ako.

*This is just a reminder na bibitaw na ko sayo!

            GOODBYE & Hope hindi na tayo magtagpo.

*Your the worst man that I ever know!

                                                    Moving On,
                                                      Roann😊

EMPTY

When I was a kid I thought  ako na pinakamalas but I just realized that I’m so blessed. I saw myself in a bad way. Akala ko sobra nakakaawa na ako, tangi nakikita ko lang ang meron ang iba na wala ako pero ng mamulat ako sa totoong mundo may mga taong mas nakakaawa pa kaysa sa akin. Sobra ako nagpapasalamat sa lahat. Utang ko lahat sa Diyos at sa mga taong andyan parati para tulungan ako….

Pero bakit ganoon hindi pa din ako masaya? At this point of my life, I have everything that I need actually more than of that, Not being a rich kid but a life that you will be contented. My dreams came true but despite of everything I still feel empty inside.

I always pray to God that He will help me for this, it’s been a days and I’m still feel sad and alone. I always want to stay alone at room and not want to talk to anyone. Is this normal?  Looking for something that I don’t know.

I don’t want to feel this way. I want to be happy again. It was hard to be like this. What will I do? How long I’ll feel this? I’m tired. I want to come back on my daily routine.

I’m on my point that I don’t want to do what I want to do before, like I already hate working and I’m not happy anymore.  What if I quit? Is that the right decision? Or maybe pagsisihan ko kapag magresign ako. Should I consider also my family on my decision? If I’m asking I want to quit but I know my family won’t approve it. I’m not perfect but I’m a perfectionist. And I want them to always be proud of me, will I disappoint them? 

Hope to choose a right decision.

:)

SMILE

     i have a story, but sorry for not a good story writer. (lol) i make it short so i start to the purpose of what i really want to share to you.

     when a girl look outside the window bus, she saw a boy looking at her spot(its look like in her spot), smiling. maybe to her, she's not sure because she don't want to assume. she don't even know the boy in the other bus. but the smile of the boy looks a kind person, so she didn't mind the boy and continue scrolling on her phone. and because she don't even care on everything she don't mind the boy, which is its look like the boy is "papansin".

      15 mins. at the bus stop terminal is over, so they continue travelling to where the destination is. the boy look again to the girl, smiling(as the girl assuming, lol). the girl focus on travel. she loves road trip. she saw fog up the sky, the place to her is beautiful. she also loves the zigzag road while they're travelling. 

      they're already at the terminal of their destination. one of the bus overtake to their bus, but when she look away in the window he saw again the boy. he's already looking at the girl and smiling. 
      the girl instinct is that the boy really looking at her. maybe if not, she's just assuming. but you know the feeling when someone looking at you or especially smiling at you. you will feel it. you know what the girl mean. right?.. 

      they go out in the bus. the boy already outside the bus, getting there luggage. the girl standing at the terminal, she feel again that the boy looking at her. when she turn at her left side the boy smiling at her direction. 
      when the girl pass at the boy's back the boy turn on the girl's way. 
      the girl went to the other side of the terminal to wait for the taxi then she saw again the boy waiting also for the taxi. the boy got first the taxi, he go inside the taxi, turn the face to the girl and smile. and the end. 

      the girl never get his number or even his name... but soon for sure they're never remember each other. they gonna laugh at this if they remember this. after a days or week for sure they will forget the face.

      ----its like that!!!! putol story. they never saw each other again, i think they're mutual (sayang the opportunity. lol) or maybe if they meant for each other, magkikita ulit sila. they're just human. they're not perfect. how i wish they see each other again. we will never know what's God's plan. but maybe its our choice, so nakasalalay pa din sayo ang life mo. do moves and the others, si God na bahala. 

     the lesson here is its not always a happy ending but you can make yourself be happy and be in a positive way. go on on your life. but still always SMILE to stranger because maybe its makes other happy. 

TRAVEL

Are you looking for relaxation, new places, new adventures, and new in everything? Here’s my tip for my sightseeing travel;

-          Look for Facebook, instagram post or Google it.

-          Next, best thing to do Google it on how to go there or how to find it.

-          That’s easy right? (lolz)(I’m not good at tip-sy!!!) haha..

Whenever I saw a post on social media and the place looks nice, I always planning to go in that place with my mom, even if we still don’t know how to get there its fine with us because it’s easy to find way and ask people how.

BTW, I always travel with my mom. The reason behind it is, I want my mom to experience what I’m experiencing. I want her to be happy too. The other reason is because I have few friends and my off is wed and thu, and no one of my friends has a rest day like mine.  

                For me sightseeing is to appreciate the beauty of world.

                You’re lucky to see those things.

                So blessed to get in those places.

(sorry for my English.)

Travelling is not tiring for me, it makes me happy and feel relax, free to stress at work. Forgetting problems. Thinking deep about your life and realization about it.

I know I’m not good at blogging, actually I think what I’m doing right now is just about what on my mind right now. Just expressing it. Explaining things that I don’t know if other people will understands me.

Back to travelling, this is the reason why I work. I still dreaming to get to other places, like places I’ve never been. Places that too far from here.

Travelling is not about expenses in your life. It’s more about your passion. Love of your life. Travelling makes you smile.

Just think about beautiful places that you will see on social media or picture, it’s make you feel excited to think that someday you’ll get in that place.

This is like a child who learns new things. They’re very happy, right?

Explore, fly high, dream. You’ll get there someday.

I hope I get there. Right now just a places near my town; because I don’t have leave and have two days off only on my work.

Soon. Someday. Don’t limit yourself. Travel everywhere.

Thinking myself as a workaholic one. I’m not! It’s just that my work needs me so much(lolz).

So that’s why I’m craving for TRAVEL.

MY PRINCESS

PRINCESS

       This is a sad news for me, because my pet, my friend, my playmate, my stress reliever is now in heaven.

                But should I be happy?....... That she’s now with God. But no! it’s a big NO, I'm sad. I lost a friend, a family. She’s my medicine when I’m stress, tired and feel alone.

                When I’m thinking that I can’t hug her anymore, makes me sick. I want to cry. I can’t pinch her anymore. I can’t play with her now. I can’t tell story to her now.

                I’m just missing her. She’s like always noisy and barking when she knows that I’m getting home.  Missing her about pinching on her butt (favorite/love to do to her) when I’m so “gigil” and looks cute to me.

                Of course, she’s pretty even she’s too big in her size. "Beautiful pet, the best of all". My Princess , I don’t want to say Goodbye but “see you on another  time”.

                You are always in my heart. You gave so much joy to our family.

                They never know what I feel inside.  I want to blame someone but should I do that? I can’t blame someone and be mad to them. Sorry! It’s my fault.

                Oh! Princess. I want to have a magic and bring you back. I want to live with you until I get old. I still want to play with you. I want to play with you always, forever.

                This is not a goodbye, I still can’t,….. I still can’t accept everything.

                   Love

                  joy

STRESSING OUT

Few things I do when I’m stress

GOODBYE FOR NOW

I know that I’m not a good person but I still question GOD, “Why him?” we never expect this. I still can’t believe that he’s gone now.

Sometimes I feel that he’s just far away taking vacation, but in a moment I just realize that he’s already gone. I’m doing this blog because I want him to remember always.

I may be sound selfish but if I have a power I will make him alive and be with us. I know he’s happy now in a good place with GOD, I know he tried to be strong to be with us but maybe he’s mission in this world is over but I know we all gonna be with you on the right time.

This is not the end of forever without you. Someday I will understand why GOD makes this happen with our family. I know there’s a good reason. He is always in our heart.

I’m so blessed to be his granddaughter. I remember when I’m a kid he’s giving everything we need. He’s a happy person who’s always joking with us. I’m very thankful to him. It’s just sad that he’s now gone and never be with us.

I remember before he die, I dream of him. He’s just standing in front of me, wearing white shirt and smiling, like he’s happy now to where he was. And to this I gonna be happy for him. He’s always in our heart no matter what, we will never forget you.

Wishing, you’re happy right now to where you are, I always missing you. I’m happy that GOD chosen you to be my grandfather, I may not close to you but I always loved you. You are my family that’s why you are important. Without you, is like we broke our one wings but we need to stand up for you and for us. We love you always. 

Remember: beJOYTIFULalways ;)