EMPTY

When I was a kid I thought  ako na pinakamalas but I just realized that I’m so blessed. I saw myself in a bad way. Akala ko sobra nakakaawa na ako, tangi nakikita ko lang ang meron ang iba na wala ako pero ng mamulat ako sa totoong mundo may mga taong mas nakakaawa pa kaysa sa akin. Sobra ako nagpapasalamat sa lahat. Utang ko lahat sa Diyos at sa mga taong andyan parati para tulungan ako….

Pero bakit ganoon hindi pa din ako masaya? At this point of my life, I have everything that I need actually more than of that, Not being a rich kid but a life that you will be contented. My dreams came true but despite of everything I still feel empty inside.

I always pray to God that He will help me for this, it’s been a days and I’m still feel sad and alone. I always want to stay alone at room and not want to talk to anyone. Is this normal?  Looking for something that I don’t know.

I don’t want to feel this way. I want to be happy again. It was hard to be like this. What will I do? How long I’ll feel this? I’m tired. I want to come back on my daily routine.

I’m on my point that I don’t want to do what I want to do before, like I already hate working and I’m not happy anymore.  What if I quit? Is that the right decision? Or maybe pagsisihan ko kapag magresign ako. Should I consider also my family on my decision? If I’m asking I want to quit but I know my family won’t approve it. I’m not perfect but I’m a perfectionist. And I want them to always be proud of me, will I disappoint them? 

Hope to choose a right decision.

:)