When I was a
kid I thought ako na pinakamalas but I
just realized that I’m so blessed. I saw myself in a bad way. Akala ko sobra
nakakaawa na ako, tangi nakikita ko lang ang meron ang iba na wala ako pero ng
mamulat ako sa totoong mundo may mga taong mas nakakaawa pa kaysa sa akin.
Sobra ako nagpapasalamat sa lahat. Utang ko lahat sa Diyos at sa mga taong
andyan parati para tulungan ako….
Pero bakit
ganoon hindi pa din ako masaya? At this point of my life, I have everything
that I need actually more than of that, Not being a rich kid but a life that
you will be contented. My dreams came true but despite of everything I still
feel empty inside.
I always
pray to God that He will help me for this, it’s been a days and I’m still feel
sad and alone. I always want to stay alone at room and not want to talk to
anyone. Is this normal? Looking for
something that I don’t know.
I don’t want
to feel this way. I want to be happy again. It was hard to be like this. What
will I do? How long I’ll feel this? I’m tired. I want to come back on my daily
routine.
I’m on my
point that I don’t want to do what I want to do before, like I already hate
working and I’m not happy anymore. What
if I quit? Is that the right decision? Or maybe pagsisihan ko kapag magresign
ako. Should I consider also my family on my decision? If I’m asking I want to
quit but I know my family won’t approve it. I’m not perfect but I’m a perfectionist.
And I want them to always be proud of me, will I disappoint them?
Hope to
choose a right decision.
:)
